At 5:30am on the front verandah I sat and watched brooding clouds move around the top of the mountain. You could have called the morning ‘close’. The humidity was like a medium-weight blanket, and the building clouds are teasing us with the prospect of rain.
At one point I saw some formations happening and despite all the sketching gear laying around the office at present I raced and picked up the nearest pad and a biro so I could scribble what I was seeing. After a few days of banging away at something that’s still not working, it’s easy to erode one’s own direction. I know I’ve got better at ignoring those voices with their little archeological hammers and brushes that chip, chip, chip away at my defence shield. But turning to art play, scribbling with a biro, just getting on and doing more work, is like a laser gun to those voices.
Dave’s last post about visiting Chuck Close’s show in NY reminded me of his motto in ‘Inside the Painters Studio‘: “Inspiration is for amateurs—the rest of us just show up and get to work. And the belief that things will grow out of the activity itself and that you will—through work—bump into other possibilities and kick open other doors that you would never have dreamt of of if you were just sitting around looking for a great ‘art idea’. And the belief that process, in a sense, is liberating and that you don’t have to reinvent the wheel every day. Today, you know what you’ll do, you could be doing what you were doing yesterday, and tomorrow you are gonna do what you did today, and at least for a certain period of time you can just work. If you hang in there, you will get somewhere.”
Chuck also says he often has tv on while he paints, but mine is still in the cupboard though I did watch this great YouTube video, you need an hour so make a cuppa and settle in, it’s really good: ‘A portrait in progress’.
10 minute gouache scribble. Need to do another and forget the land mass for a while, the little voices say this needs working up…